hello there everyone,just saying i'm still of this earth,not been around but just been going through alot right now..fighting anxiety and depression ect..sold a few boxes,dont think i will be buying anymore,i've finished for now..but anyhow i hope to post more,dont know when,but hopefully soon..

Woohoo bm good to see you back lad 

Great to hear from you again paul......we missed you bro

ELVIS is back in the building whooooooooooohooooooo let the show commence....welcome back lad

yeah welcome back BM it's always a shame to lose members and great to have them back

good to see you back bm about fecking time  

Welcome back BM, it's good to hear from you again, keep your head up.

What's Up! Beanie Man Glad your back,''fight those demon's'' bro,being back on here will ease your spirit's,good company alway on S2G....GET BETTER FRIEND.

hey beanie man, we miss you here brother, dont be a stranger.

Welcome back BM, wish you health and happiness in 2013.

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good to see you back on BM,hope all is well.

hi guys,i am really choaked to see you all greet me back like this,its nice to see..

But i would just like to tell you what i am going through,its a bit embarrassing for me to talk like this,but i was with my girlfriend for about 21 years,we split up 5 years ago,but i never got over her,i had depression for years,but since we split up its been there all the time,thats why maybe i snapped or seemed like i did'nt like some people,its not me,its the depression,and the anxiety,its changed me and made me a different person..i used to love boxes, for 25 years,but i just fell out of love with them,i've even sold off alot of boxes,one being a Sharp GF999 that i said i would never ever part with,  now i have found out she has a new man,my world has fell apart,she has ripped my heart out,i'm finding it hard to handle at the moment,i cant eat,cant sleep,and i just cant face anyone,i would love to come back on here and chat and get to know you all again but she is just on my mind,every hour of every day and night..sorry to embarrass you all like this,i know this is not the samaritans or anything and i'm not looking for sympathy, but i just wanted to explain properly what is going on in my life,i'm a ruined man

Best advise I can give you as five years is a long time, people move on and change over the years, you can't expect her, or anyone for that fact of the matter to put a hold on their life. Their others in the pond, change is not a bad thing. If it something you did to her? The best thing you can do is learn from your mistakes and move on. If you isolate yourself from the world, or cutting off emotions and push others away. You are going to fall deeper in depression and it going to get worst. You may even find someone better in the end and won't even realize it till it happens and may even take time then, it's normal.

If you cannot seem to resolve your issues, look to seek the help of a therapist, it always good to take advise and have someone listen that can help. Do Things You Once Liked to Do ... even if you don't feel like it, force yourseft. Become also more active, do things outside. Don't Punish Yourself for Feeling Bad, or angry. If you are angry don't take it out on others and push people away... figure out a good solution instead.

i know the feeling Paul and so can understand exactly where your coming from.

i was with my partner for 7 years and we have 3 children together, we split up 2 years back and she left with our kids and moved from manchester to skegness to be near her parents.

i was left alone in manchester without my kids and felt like i was in hell and all i could do was drink to try and black it all out. after months of not seeing my kids i finally got the courage to pack a bag and jump on a train and try to find a place to be near my kids.

i left my house with everything in it and threw my keys down a drain, that's how bad i was.

anyway after spending what cash i had and looking for a place to rent i had to spend weeks living in a tent and then ended up in a homeless hostel i finally got a flat after 6 months of hell.

i'm by no means happy down here as iv'e left my family and friends back in manchester but atleast i get to have my kids every weekend now.

on top of this, i get on with my ex now so it's much better for he kids.

the moral of the story is hang in there and get some support and be positive, and in the end things will pick up mate.

maybe move on when your ready and start dating again, trust me things will work out, atb man

i too have been there paul,i share your pain....its like when my baby daughter died back in 2002,i was with the same girl for ten years,including for the just mentioned event,and it all ended....i dont have the same feelings for her now though but shes got a bloke who has now moved in and is creating a happy little family with my ex and my 8 year old,but theres nothing more i can say or do....i wish you all the best paul,keep your chin up mate and remain strong....and just remember,stereo2go and its members welcome you anytime

All i want to say about this post is

Dont take life too seriously !!

Beanie Man we love you man !

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Pics by Global Undergound recs UK.

fair pair of baps on her the lad in the back ground is getting a eyeful .

Gettoman is back!   The MAN!   be here more often!   peace out lasonic battery cover bro, im only a pm away!

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good to see you back BM....we're probably the best solution to a down day ever.

When one door of hapiness closes another opens ,but often we look so long at the closed door that we do not see the one which has been opened for us.

Hope you find some peace

how anybody can ever carry on after the pain of losing a child is beyond me. my deepest sympathies will always be with you Andy and you should be proud of yourself for finding the strength to carry on.

god bless you my friend

I second this recommendation. I remember you talking about this before when you posted as Gettoman. You need someone that can help you work through your feelings and make positive steps to moving forward in your life. If you don't, you're (only) human- we all tend to hash over the mistakes and relationships that ended in our lives. Some are better than others at moving on with minimal help or a kick in the pants from friends and family. Others have a harder time.

There is absolutely *no* shame for being in the latter category. Take a big step towards happiness and schedule some sessions with a therapist that will listen to you and help.

My rules for staying happy are:

Live life passionately, embrace change as best you can, forgive or apologize quickly when a mistake happens and leave the past (emotionally speaking) where it belongs. The things you carry with you from the past destroy your ability to enjoy a fulfilling life and share it with others.

And we want you to be able to share the "here and now" around here in a happy way

I am going to agree with the advice given here as well as give one more.   A few years ago I went to the doc feeling off, like just not right. Not being able to deal with the smallest things in life.  My Doc wanted to put me on anti depressant pills but, instead I saw a therapist.   The therapist suggested that I get checked for thyroid issues, and testosterone    As it turned out I had something called Hashimotos disease and low test both!     

Bottom line, I was glad I saw a therapist and found out all that was wrong with me was not all mental!   Sometimes family doctors around here are too quick to give pills to coverup instead of finding out the issue.        

Live life passionately, embrace change as best you can, forgive or apologize quickly when a mistake happens and leave the past (emotionally speaking) where it belongs. The things you carry with you from the past destroy your ability to enjoy a fulfilling life and share it with others.

Wise words

hello everyone,thank you for the replies,it does mean alot,but i'm in a dark place now and i dont think its going to get better..please read my new thread..